This evening, the yearly Jewish Day of Atonement begins at
sundown.
For reasons that are personal (and medical also) I do not
fast. By the Jewish Orthodox principals, there’s no “half-fasting” or modifying
of the commandment to do so. You either do, or don’t.
I disagree, but that’s because I am not orthodox.
There are ways to change the routines of the day and make it
strongly felt, opening a wider door to genuine atonement. My way is also
personal, and changing from year to year.
But regardless, it begins with asking for forgiveness to all
you have knowingly offended. I’m stymied, because I make sure not to knowingly
offend. This is distinct from being offensive just for being yourself and having
others not like what you are and what you think. No apologies for that.
What I do regret, and whole heartedly apologize for, are misjudgments
and not being a better more helpful person when I could have and should have been.
There is much wisdom of the ages in this yearly
account. It’s a gift to us, not punishment.
I wish all a good passage through the doors of atonement.
It is a beautiful practice, Mirka. It is one reason why I am so grateful for the sacrament of penance. You come away clean, washed in the Blood of the Lamb, knowing your sins are forgiven. As we begin practicing for Requiem Mass the four last things are on my mind as well--death, judgment, heaven and hell. Blessings to you this Yom Kippur.
ReplyDeleteIt's a good practice, Mirka. I'm glad you've found a way to make it meaningful for you, even if that doesn't adhere to the requirements of the orthodox. As with many things, it's the spirit in which they're done that's important.
ReplyDeleteI like what you said about the different types of offending.
ReplyDeleteAsking for forgiveness can be hard at times, but you're right that it's a gift.
I think it's a very good practice to reflect on times when we haven't been our best selves and ask for forgiveness!
ReplyDeleteI purchased and read your book, Voice of Thunder. As a read it, I thought, "Wait a minute—this seems awfully familiar." Sure enough, I had already read and reviewed it. LOL! Anyway, I enjoyed it just as much the second time.